You sit down with your Mushaf after Fajr. The house is quiet. Nobody asked how your revision went yesterday. Nobody will ask tomorrow either. Your friends are good people. Practising Muslims, some of them. But Hifz? That is not on their radar. They are not thinking about it, not planning it, not even talking about it. And so you carry this enormous thing — this dream of becoming a Hafiz — completely alone. If you have ever typed something like "no one around me is memorizing Quran" into a search bar at 11pm, this post is written for you. The Specific Pain of Walking This Road Alone It is not just loneliness in the normal sense. It is a particular kind of invisible weight. You cannot bring it up casually at dinner. You cannot text your friend "I forgot the last three pages I memorized and I feel terrible" because they would not know what to say. You cannot celebrate finishing a new surah because there is nobody who truly gets why that matters. And then there is the comparison trap. Your friends are posting holiday pictures, career wins, gym check-ins. Meanwhile you are in a quiet room at dawn, wrestling with the same three ayahs for the fourth morning in a row. Some days it genuinely feels like you are doing something nobody else even values. That feeling is real. But I want to offer you a different way to see it. Allah Already Knows What You Are Doing The Prophet, peace be upon him, said: "The one who recites the Quran and is skilled in it will be with the noble, righteous, scribing angels. And the one who recites the Quran and finds it difficult, stumbling through it, will have two rewards." (Sahih al-Bukhari, 4937 and Sahih Muslim, 798) Notice something about this hadith. There is no mention of whether anyone else knew you were doing it. No mention of an audience, a support group, or a community cheering you on. The reward is between you and Allah. It always was. When no one is watching, when no one is clapping, when no one even knows — that is arguably the purest form of this deed. The sincerity of it is undiluted. You are not doing this for anyone's approval. You are doing it because something deep inside you recognises that this is the most important thing you could do with your life. Why Your Circle Not Doing Hifz Is Not the Problem You Think It Is Here is a mindset shift that might sting a little. Having a whole circle of Hifz friends does not automatically mean you will finish. And walking this road alone does not mean you will fail. Plenty of people have been surrounded by community and still never got past Juz Amma. And plenty of people have sat alone in a bedroom with a Mushaf and completed all thirty juz. What actually determines whether you finish is not your social circle. It is your internal commitment paired with the right structure. If you struggle with the all-or-nothing mindset or keep restarting without finishing, those are the real battles. The loneliness is painful, but it is not what will stop you. That said, human beings need some form of accountability. You are not weak for needing it. The question is just where you find it. The Loneliness Often Hides Something Else Sometimes "I feel alone on this journey" is covering a quieter fear. A fear that maybe you are not serious enough. That you will quit again. That the isolation is an excuse your nafs is saving up for when motivation dips. Because here is what happens. When you have no accountability, every bad day becomes a private failure. Nobody is checking in. So when you miss a week, you can just quietly disappear. No awkward conversation. No explaining yourself. You just drift away and nobody notices. That silent exit is one of the biggest reasons people stop after a long break and never restart. The loneliness is real. But sometimes it is also a door the shaytan uses. When you cannot share the wins, the journey feels pointless. When you cannot share the struggles, the journey feels impossible. And eventually you stop trying. Recognising this pattern is the first step to breaking it. What to Actually Do When You Are the Only One in Your Circle First, accept that your offline circle may never join you on this path. That is okay. You are not waiting for their permission and you do not need their participation. What you need is one person or one structured space that holds you to this. Second, find your people online. The Muslim adults doing Hifz in their 20s, 30s, and 40s are out there. They are in online communities, in classes, in accountability groups. You just have not found them yet. The moment you step into a space where others are on this exact journey, something shifts in you. You realize you are not strange for wanting this. You are not behind. You are not alone. Third, give yourself a teacher and a session time that you have to show up for. Even if you only have twenty minutes a day, having a scheduled session with a real person transforms your journey from a private struggle into a commitment you honour. And if you have ever tried memorizing without a local teacher, you already know that the right online setup can be just as powerful. HifzBuddy: Built for Adults Who Are Doing This Alone If any of this has described your last few years, you need to know that HifzBuddy exists specifically for adults in your situation. Not kids. Not beginners starting from scratch. Adults who already have some Quran in their hearts and need a real human and a real system to help them go further. If you are restarting after a break and the guilt and isolation have been keeping you stuck, HifzBuddy gives you a teacher who understands where you are and meets you there, with no judgment. If you are already revising regularly but plateauing without feedback or structure, a dedicated Hifz session changes everything. And if you are just getting going and the thought of doing this without anyone in your corner feels overwhelming, this is exactly the community and accountability you have been missing. You do not have to be the only one in your circle trying anymore. With HifzBuddy, you step into a circle that is built around this journey. Come and find your people.
Tajul Furqan 